oh my it has been so long since i've written in here. 2 more days until we close for winter break. i wish we could take finals b4 we go cuz i'll forget a lot of the stuff that i learned this year. that's right by the time we come back it will be 2004!!! yay graduation in 6 months.
anyway i don't know how i fell right now. i'm bored. not satified in everyway possible and just damn right jealous of all those peeps who you see making out when all they really need to do is get a room. (LOL) well i have hecka peeps at work that maybe would fit with my friends but none of them has agrred to meet with them yet. surferboi's not home yet but he'll probably back on friday. it's not that i'm obsessed with him is just that i don't have anyone else to fawn over that is within reach. dang i really need a life. i have like 2 secret santas and i still need yo buy 2 more presents tomorrow. gosh i have my work cut out for me. ne way i'm gonna go now so that ii can actually get HW done. love muchas
no , i don't have a b/f as much as i would want one. no i'm not moving out. no my parents aren't letting me get my belly pierced.....yet. i'm not gonna fuck marshall boy.. even though he's oh so cute. yup you guessed it, surfer dudes back for the holidays at least for the time being. its so funny i saw his car parked like right behind mine as if he had just got there. oh well i'm working today, so i won't be able to see him. but i bet dork would like to see him up close and personal if you know what i mean. J/K
on a different note were having a little work drama at the theatre. i don't know whats happened but all i know is that NC want to hurt FC for some reason. welll today is the day because they are both working and NC gets off before FC so they might fight but my moneys on NCcuz he's my BUDDY. anyway i'm gonna stop my jibberish and get off the roof. ttyl
i think i'm completely restless. boys like me but probably will never say it cuz i'm who i am and i prbably will never change. i am worrying that i will never have a date for eniro ball and then i know i want to get my belly button peirced for my 18th birthday. i know my parents may be against it but they will never know as long as my mom doesn't walk in on me while i'm changing. i really want a boyfriend or just a boy i could play with and who wouldn't mind having a fling with me otherwise i don't think i want anything so solid. well i'll leave u now and stop complaining . later
i don't know why she can't take a hint. i don't like her namely becuz she only wants to be friends with me so that she can get connections with my big bro and my black friends. she doesn't get it that she has big problems with fawning over boys like it is her life. well to all my friends you know exactly who i'm talking about. i not going to talk to her and i don't give a fuck if the boys he likes are all black guys or ugly red heads. she doesn't know that the red heads only go out with you cuz they think they can get some. there are no black boys that are even close to cute that would ever like her because she is too controling and clingy. well this is my thing and my mama never told me not to cuss someone out on the internet.
well to all those who care i love my big bro and i wouldn't want a slut to go out with him. see ya!
well this weekend really sucked big ass doggy balls. it may seem weird that even my brother who isn't even living with us any more can affect me so much. everytime he comes home he has to tease me so much that it doesn't even seem like a joke anymore. he's just mad becuz my dad let me drive to school even though i don't have my liscense. when he was a senior he wasn't allowed to but i am. my younger bro tries to put me down every chance that he gets an d i alway get blamed for starting it since i am the older sibling and i should know better than to be having petty fights with my brother. after all this abuse that idiot of a brother of mine thinks that i have to drive him wherever he need to go and help him with his home work whenever i'm doing something. can you believe that he had the audacity to tell my older bro that he is scared when i drive him bcuz i may crash. well he should walk if he does not want to drive with me. well by for now.
but i bet dork would like to see him up close and personal if you know what i mean. J/K
